I solve you like an equation.
NP-complete just need an equivalence.
Finding the family of known complements.
Adding up the sum of the differentiations.
What's a soul in the grand scheme of things.
However big or small in a fractal dream.
Where the Xs & Ys find their roofs & ceilings.
Watch the pen traces out the local optimal.
Whoever awed by infinite decimals.
Whatever helps to grasp the imaginary.
Still master of null but some odd fellows.

I really try hard to grow a heart,
but the road gets narrower & more dark.
Does every life ultimately knows its path?
Why is mine so distant as if lived from afar?
Things I'm wishing for I dare not have.
Dead-end to dead-end though have no regret.
Maybe a life drifted too far from the shore?
Always outside looking in wishing that I had.

It's all fun & games till someone burst a blood vessel,
or the sandstorm steals the apocalyptic show,
or the brain simply throws away the control
then maybe we will be on the same level.
Mindfulness, calmness & progress meaningful,
no place for reflection or the contract is null.
Feel something? "Oops, quick, change the channel!"
More ways to hell than there's God's people.
Vices, crisis, which ever the wind blows.
The most apt to disasters are the most successful.
It's all fun & games, just get at the table.
Just one shot & you're the shit & it's all so natural.

Oh, commitment. Oh, commitment.
Won't you give me another chance
to wait & see how the other opportunities
play out? Since I can't make up my mind
where to spend my precious energy?
Won't you agree the issue lies
in all the things they taught me.
Oh, commitment.
You're the fire, I am but paper,
it won't be long till you wear me through.
But maybe I will cast a pretty glow?
What do you think?

Those on the Watch Tower,
what do you see?
Will there be merry weather
or dark clouds gathering.
Do you see the fire
from the vengeful past?
Will you sound the alarm?
Or gather up & flee?
Oh, those on the Watch Tower,
what fate brought you there?
Have you someone you're minding?
Or are you alone always?
When the sky turns black,
do you kneel down & pray?
Have the stars shown you the way?
Do you enjoy watching the slaves?
The Watch Tower, thick & tall,
built on unknown graves.
Those on the Watch Tower,
do you shiver? So close to the Heavens,
hearing destiny's whispers?

Order & safety.
That's what my library gives me.
They record my name for a fee
and they have what I need.
Order & safety.
All the librarians have PhDs,
so they know what "Shhhh" means,
and they serve you with humanity.
I wish I can live there
among the books & DVDs.
Just archive me alphabetically,
I know I will be in good company.
Order and safety.
My books are past due.
It's OK I will visit soon
whenever I need a hit.
Order & safety.
Order & safety!
ORDER & SAFETY!!

I don't see your devilish grin
nor your true intention.
One day you will say
what I want to hear,
and that's "I love you, my dear."
Till then I'm gonna plot & spy,
weaving my spider's net.
You say you're getting tired?
Well, just lay down on my awaiting bed,
with champagne & spice.
What a romantic am I?

You know I'm from the dark side
no matter how hard I try.
Time & time it shows,
round & round you know.
There's no blaming,
it's worth noting.
Everything's in me
to no one's surprise.
Lucky to be alive,
after all that delay.
It's just hard to decide,
what am i.
Doesn't matter just be.
The voices become quiet.
Can't be too far from death.
Yet there's a light.
I get back in line,
starting to hear the rhythm,
smelling that sweet bread.
Darkness I expand,
like an old friend.
Don't be afraid
what might've been placed
like an antique box,
safely waiting,
for an aged hand
to gently retrieve.
What's still.
Darkness awaits.