I see something’s shadow
and the shadow sees me.
I’m tired & have nothing left to give.
Haven’t I always been like this?
I hear the rustle of the leaves,
I don’t know what it means.
Give me another thousand years
I may know that peace.
My brain’s hurting, being alive.
Don’t know what I’m feeling,
in the depth of the streetlight.
Seems always running, chasing a rest.
You sing it the best, versions of good night.
Since we’re still here, make it a goodbye.
Or just forget, sometimes it comes back, another life,
nothing changes, death blind, drinking in time.
You say the line, I know it sounds right.
It’s a celebration, the guests never left.
Baby, don’t you know? The desperation’s too real?
Give oblivion another time capsule.
I kept thinking that
by not being myself,
I would be safe.
I might have gotten it backward.
It is the matter
to the best
of my ability.
I think I might be smart.
I know the big Os of sorts.
Facebook, big G asking me out.
On the shortlist, I must be hot.
A female professional, heads-down workahoe.
Don’t tell me what to do though.
Designed it, implemented it, tested it, you say oh.
What’s that? No raise, no promo?
Skills solid, let me send you the receipts.
Served you right, recruiting me,
asking me where I’d like to live.
Seattle, NY, bay area, wherever you need.
You thought I could just be,
you could guess it on my race,
or maybe it’s just the resume.
You got your process, I have my vaca.
Travel’s tiring, I have 45 minutes
to show you what I got,
plenty others waiting their turns, no rush.
It’s the result that talks.
It’s binary, it’s emotional.
End of day, make it compilable.
Are you machine enough to be one of us?
Come back when your systems have stickers on top.
What’s your goal today?
And don’t you run away.
The sun rises, it will set.
Can you rest when you go to bed?
Today is that special day,
it will never come again.
Find out where your dream lies,
go where it goes & don’t look back.
There’s something called evolution,
you have to adapt to survive.
Can you tell me the difference
between your life & the one to have?
Candy or tea,
one bitter, one sweet.
One tells you’re awesome,
the other tells you’re weak.
Plenty of medicine nobody wants
when you can have syrup for breakfast.
Forget the suffering & the malice
long as there’s elixir in the chalice.
Cut the debate,
have some cake.
Nothing to say,
since we all agree:
“It’s so good.”
“It’s so fluff.”
“What’s the receipt?”
“Let me take a shot!”
Sweetness is good,
to satisfy your cravings.
Some tea for cleansing.
Good & bad in one saucer,
nothing much else matters.
Have another spoonful of sugar,
let me fill in more hot water.
Nothing like the teatime,
to get the weekend started.
Thinking on the civilized,
all planning & strategize.
Big time, choose a side,
whoever wins, on the sideline.
It’s OK, we’re doing great.
Let’s all clink for teatime.
My imagination’s trying to get me killed.
Is this reality or another bouncing castle?
Is this a hand or somebody’s asshole?
Does the light play tricks or is it the shadow?
I see different things at the same time in different places.
Do I dream inside the dream and then miss the exit?
I stare at you for hours on end that’s the least creepy.
History in the family, it’s genetic batshit.
Saner than sane, paranoid, better hand me that search light.
Can’t deny there’s romance in dangerous derangements.
Take you time, plan ahead, bright futures for E-V-E-R-Y-ONE.
Who’s to say who’s who who’s what who’s gonna go cufulagaluu.