If I love myself.

I'd give myself the best rest
hugged by books & blankets,
if I love myself.
I'd see the world as it is
not a chamber of torture & regrets.
If I love myself
I would not watch so many horror movies
and let little things hit the mark.
If I love myself I'd go with the
flow for awhile, give out love as I
go along & call it a life well-lived.
If I love myself.

Mistaken love.

Mistaken love from some place dark.
Crave the emotional drug to
bring out the worst in me.
Life can be all about
counting scars and,
drink up youth while it lasts.
But true love will give you
a notebook & a pen
so you start from the beginning
and chronicle the brave adventures
of a one-of-a-kind human.

Narcissist.

All along there's the
misogynistic undertone.
You say it's love
I say go fuck yourself.

You think you know me
but say I don't know you.
Is it a good thing?
Or is that info optional?

I don't need your pity
you sap my energy.
I might have been weak
but you're holding onto me.

Give it a second and
let it all sink in:
I'm the lead in my story
even if it's narcissistic.

Respect.

All I learned from love
is that they leave scars.
And you may lose your head,
end up in the same shipwreck.

It's a trial to break free.
It's a lesson to be the same.
There's warmth, there's stars,
and the stories to feel safe.

Impossible things, every day.
Pieces of hearts pave the way
to the place all beauty lay:
endless heartbreaks, a brave face.

Su-sexful.

Having sex is like play,
innocent as it's no sin.
Whatever bullshit they say.
Sex is main joy of living.

Tell me who's top who bottom.
Just one whole orgasm.
As long as there's pee & poo,
there's other bodily fluid.

Put judgement outta the door.
In the playground get mind blown.
MILF daddy step sis anime porn.
Have a pleasant susexful moan.

Business.

You reserved your anger at me,
treated me as your enemy.
Now you want my affection.
Now you're ready for my company.
That ship has sailed & sunk.
We're now in different realms.
I understand you're a victim too
that doesn't excuse you passing it on.
They say the mothers stand still
so we can see how far we've come.
I wish I've never existed so
you could burn all this shit down.
Frustrated insane mothers,
don't blame your insane daughters.
We're not here for your comfort.
The business is not finished.

Bond.

There's human bonds forged in hell
that you can't find anywhere else.
It's filled with hurt & shame
coagulated with blood & urine.
It's a festering spot in the soul
you don't know what happens if poked.
That's the spot where you're vulnerable.
No answers, no prayers & no cure.
If you sit with it as a knowing friend,
you may forge a bond sourced in heaven.

2nd chance.

I was never happy.
They didn't care.
It's as if
I was never there.
Punish them by
giving myself the finger.
Long have known
life ain't fair.
It's alright, now.
It's alright.
The demon in the head
is not the permanent kind.
You can be lighter.
You can touch the sky.
Now it's your chance.
Better luck this time.