Mother taught me life's a tight rope, so I walked it like a pro to be a slave & keep the dough, had some laughs, all for show. Never really learned what love is, read the books & saw the movies too, alas it's not a muscle I ever use, if I did, it must've snapped in two. Born & raised by fear & resentment, now it's time to bake the pie. Told myself to stand down & pull back, no wonder there's no such person as I. It's different what's outside & inside, maybe some day it will be aligned. Life is not something to keep in hand, spend it wisely & open it wide.
I ain't pulling punches, yo, cause it's my goddamned rocket ship. Don't mean to offend y'all, ladies & genital sticks. Never been to any club that doesn't have piss stains. So if you're talking to me you know it ain't about civilities. Tired of your sacred lies & million-dollar fairy tales. It's never what's been told, but what's been left out. Get a shovel, protect your 6, and punch your own way out. You never know, find the groove, life might be worthwhile.
It's good to be alive sometimes especially after stormy days & nights for the moment when the sun does shine makes it worthwhile fighting for a breath.
I think & think that's all I ever do. Now I have to consider the likelihood that I'm sane, y'all are crazy. What's wrong with dreams? I'm sick of leaving a door open to let doubt in and your lives that are not even authentic. It's the same chorus, the same faces, I don't know what you want from me. Maybe nothing, I'm just self-important. I'm tired, I'm worthless, but I'm on the solid ground, a piece of land that I found. Maybe I shouldn't turn away so quick. You are there for back up, I appreciate it. But I have to say no to something. Delay after delay, thinking after thinking. So wrapped up, nothing wrong with criticism keeping you on the balance. Think, you. Think!
Oh, can't you see the sun when a hard decision's made and a gut-wrenching deed is done? Would you celebrate it or let the doubts eat you away? There's never a single line, but a feeling you're on the right track & something's different this time. More to lose & not caring what is to gain. One train leaves without you & it's still a happy day.
It's hard, no? When you had enough & ready to call it quits. Where you're down on your knees to pray, throwing pride away. Don't you know it's good for you, get lost in a brand new space. Don't run away, now, ageless voices are cheering you on. Make yourself the guide & them your witness, through winter comes spring. When you're at your lowest, know that you are never alone, feel the warmth. It's your chance at living, like those that came before, make them proud. Don't run away, now, it's your gravest self saying, "Don't run away."
Walking on the edge, until you do you will never see the other side. What a joke to be wise. To pretend there's an answer to life.
I collect shattered pieces and recognize it is me without ever knowing if it will ever be complete. The scriptures & prophecies lead to nowhere if you just follow it. Have you made your masterpiece?