It's OK to love this mess; the pain & disappointments. While the heart keeps a rhythm, there's a future quietly awaits.
May reality be your playmate when illusions fade. May it storms when you're strong & calms when you're weak. May you find people that are your missing piece. May reverence overcome hate. May your possession be few, and your spirit be great.
I think I've been wrong, mistaken being weak with strong. All the judgements & indignations, yet taken no actions. There's the sense of loss, plus the rage & escapes. But why am I still here? Just to stand around? Maybe I will be happy, by chance, to help someone, anyone. It's always been an excuse, that "I felt deeply, & cared too much."
Morning haze, golden light on chicken feathers. Golden fleece, anointed living, another day for chirping birds.
It's a wild hunt, I am the prey. Moments of my life flash like a dream. The beauties I see give me reason to flee. One more step, then I can breath. I hear the shouting ferocious & near. For a second I thought, what do I have to fear? But my legs won't slow, my heart hums so smooth. It's comically natural when I'm running from you.
What if we take away the fear? When people die we pat them on their backs, send them to the ever-after? Living is not a safe bet. At least make it exciting. It's not a debt to collect.
I lower the price on love, so I can afford the rent. Dangling the key in front of your face, so you're scared that I might leave. Any second, now. Any second now. But it's such an old tale even I was not aware. Why I can't leave, why I can't breath, why I seek you out, why I fool myself. I need your love. When the sun goes down, or even it's sunny out, or high time at the sabbath. I need your blood. It better sing my name, it better stain my lips, it proves I exist. Something to run from, maybe a little braver now. The eruption of the volcano. The ending of a 5-G world. I need your love now. I need your love.
I'm a time thief yo, you wouldn't know me. Before you see me coming, I will be going. Life's no free lunch, that's what my mama taught me. So while I have these thighs, I'm gonna use it. It's just so fast, a moment is gone. I ready my hook, eyes on the buoy. I'm gonna steal it under everyone's eyes. There's nothing to it, just bait it with your life. I'm a time thief wanting a slice. And the next, & next. Desire to desire. In my hunter's eye, through thick & thin. The thrill of the chase. The chill of the night. Don't give me nothing that's already mine. I'm a time thief yo and you're my catch.
Mother taught me life's a tight rope, so I walked it like a pro to be a slave & keep the dough, had some laughs, all for show. Never really learned what love is, read the books & saw the movies too, alas it's not a muscle I ever use, if I did, it must've snapped in two. Born & raised by fear & resentment, now it's time to bake the pie. Told myself to stand down & pull back, no wonder there's no such person as I. It's different what's outside & inside, maybe some day it will be aligned. Life is not something to keep in hand, spend it wisely & open it wide.
I ain't pulling punches, yo, cause it's my goddamned rocket ship. Don't mean to offend y'all, ladies & genital sticks. Never been to any club that doesn't have piss stains. So if you're talking to me you know it ain't about civilities. Tired of your sacred lies & million-dollar fairy tales. It's never what's been told, but what's been left out. Get a shovel, protect your 6, and punch your own way out. You never know, find the groove, life might be worthwhile.