Wish I didn't learn that love is about control.
Give me that stove & use me as your fuel.
Do you enjoy the heat? Is that why you
won't let me go? As I watch my dreams
dark as the smoke.

Wish I didn't learn sometimes it's better in the cold.
With strangers who are neither friends nor foes.
An exchange or two might spark the old hope.
Then part ways again before it can take hold.

It's dangerous to be human, haven't you been told?

I don't want to be your mother,
just because I needed you to survive.
I may have deep love for you,
though I don't know why.
But I'm not your mother.
You are mine.
I learned to take your temperature
before I took your milk.
I learned to make up my own faults
before you uttered a word.
I became "wise" and "steady"
before I could be wild and authentic.
No, I won't be your mother
or anyone else's mother any more.

I try to be myself,
I could not.
So I tried to be
someone else. Sadly,
I succeeded.

I will not be my own enemy,
you're making me feeling cheap.
Selling me cancers, heart burns & skin rashes
while I miss out once-a-lifetime rain.
There ain't no space for bargain
I know what I have & it's priceless ownership.
Too many of me & just one of you?
Please, is that what your mama told you?
You have no truth, no clue & everything to lose.
Strop bringing everyone to your level.
That level of hell is not worth the crackle.
Why don't you just let go & drop to the bottom
them maybe you will come out the other side
and I won't be waiting.

Shut up & leave me alone,
I was not born for your bullshit.
Save your trauma & drama,
you've manipulated me emotionally,
enough is enough.
Keep on using me till
my heart is hard &
my mind is numb.
Guess you don't care,
the show must go on.
Well, shit, it's not my burden to bear
and I have a life to live
so goodbye & tough luck.

We're driven to chase the wind
and leave ourselves behind.
To throw away our treasures
in favor of the fart.
There's wisdom in this.
The fart is organic &
it means we've been fed.