I let the sound out.

It's like my body's pushing itself out.
It smells like a slaughter house.
Then I let the sound out.
No one's around,
still I embarrass myself.
How am I embarrassing myself?
I let the sound out.
Back of my head,
there's space to reflect:
why does it feel wrong and right?
Why is it not enough
to let the sound out?
Just let it out.