Have you encountered yourself? I have not. It's not something I like thinking about. I see the upside of buried in toil & forget about my will. But, I can not: wounded pride & nowhere to hide or hiding too well. Life is harder on the mind & soul. The body follows a moment too soon. You'll miss everything if you truly live. Is it better than not knowing? I wish you get used to hurting yourself. Then maybe be whole.